At DNS, Ulfborg, Denmark, sometime during middle of 90'ies

I’m thrilled to share that Chapter 11 of Memoir of a Wandering Spirit is now complete!

This chapter has been an emotional and expansive one to write — chronicling a time when Kacper, having returned from the long road journey through India and the Silk Route, begins to settle again… or at least attempts to.

But ‘settling’ for Kacper never quite meant staying still.

📚 Studying, Searching, and Belonging

Back at DNS in Denmark, Kacper immerses himself in a world of learning, both formal and deeply personal. He continues his studies alongside his international classmates, who have now become friends — or more precisely, a kind of chosen family. They challenge his ideas, reflect his contradictions, and inspire him to become more intentional in how he sees the world.

Their evenings are filled with debates about injustice, music sessions, and planning for future projects. The emotional thread running through the chapter is one of discovery through connection — with others, but also with parts of himself he hadn’t yet recognised.

🌲 Denmark, Sweden, and Teaching Practice

Kacper embarks on various short trips throughout Denmark and southern Sweden, often for his teaching placements. These journeys offer more than pedagogical insight — they allow him to witness different communities, lifestyles, and systems, deepening his sense of purpose as a future educator and humanitarian.

He reflects often on the contrast between the chaos of travel through Asia and the orderliness of Scandinavian towns, realising how different types of calm — and disruption — shape him.

🇮🇸 Iceland — Where the Cold Holds Warmth

Kacper’s journey to Iceland unfolds like a song remembered. He is welcomed not by strangers, but by friends whose laughter he already knows — friendships kindled months earlier in Denmark and now deepened beneath northern skies.

Helga and Inga greet him in Neskaupstaður, strong and steady, with a quiet energy that carries him through the unfamiliar. Their cousin Bryndís, gentle and glowing, offers a different kind of warmth — the kind that asks nothing but gives everything. In Reykjavik, Ragna moves through the city like poetry in motion, always with a book tucked under her arm, pointing out quiet corners only locals would know. And Teitur, straddling Iceland and Denmark with understated grace, shows him how home can exist in more than one language.

The days unfold like pages — from the raw edges of Neskaupstaður to the calm streets of Akureyri, where the air sharpens thought. Reykjavik reveals itself in layers, and then, as if to crown the experience, he floats in the Blue Lagoon — warm water meeting frozen air, silence meeting memory. Iceland does not shout. It lingers. It stays.

📌 '…They took the train to Copenhagen, chattering with the giddy energy of children let out for summer. Then, from Kastrup Airport, they boarded an Icelandair flight to Keflavík, stepping into a world of sudden dark skies and biting wind. From there, they transferred to a small domestic plane — the kind that hummed and dipped with the air — and flew across a land that looked more like a myth than a country. Below them stretched black lava fields dusted in snow, glaciers that caught the light like polished stone, and frozen rivers coiling through valleys no road could reach. And then, nestled at the edge of the eastern fjords, they saw it: Neskaupstaður, a fishing town clinging to the mountain’s hip, like a poem written in basalt.

He stayed with Helga and Inga’s family for over a week, wrapped in the glow of candles and firelight, and a kindness so unexpected it nearly overwhelmed him. It was dark for most of the day, the sun slipping up only briefly like a tired eye — but inside, there was warmth. Laughter. Connection.

There were gifts under the tree — including an Icelandic wool jumper, hand-knitted by the girls’ mother. Kacper wore it with pride and reverence. There was food he would never forget: dried fish with endless butter; sweet, dense Christmas bread; the infamous hrútspungar — marinated ram’s testicles that made his eyes water more from disbelief than taste — and, most astonishing of all, an entire ram’s head on a plate, grinning quietly beneath a glaze of cultural shock.

There were choir performances in the town church, where the air trembled with harmony and wood creaked beneath boots damp with snow. There were stories of the fish factories, and of the people who worked them — stoic, funny, resilient. They spoke of their fathers waking at four, their mothers gutting cod with bare hands, of ships lost in fog, and winters that felt endless but were somehow endured. The church, with its plain altar and low, golden light, seemed like a hearth for the whole community — a place where music softened the weight of cold days and long, sleepless nights.

And outside — there was the Iceland Kacper had only half-believed existed. Neskaupstaður was hemmed in by steep mountains, their dark shoulders blanketed in snow that never seemed to melt, only shift. The sky hung low, the daylight a brief silver hush between long walls of darkness. When the sun did rise, it skimmed the tops of the peaks like a rumour. The sea, just beyond the town’s edge, breathed in and out beneath a film of ice, vast and indifferent. Winds carved down the valley like blades, and the fjord echoed with creaks, cracks, and the distant moan of winter’s weight. The air smelled of salt and pine and something ancient. It was brutal. It was magnificent. And in that frozen stillness, Kacper felt something stir — not fear, but awe. A kind of reverence. As if the land itself was humming a hymn.

He rode a horse for the first time — an Icelandic horse, stocky and proud. The animal seemed to understand something about him, and he never forgot the feeling of movement that was not entirely his own.

He loved that family. He loved that place.
Something invisible stitched itself between them.
And years later, the threads held.

Helga visited Biegonice — twice — once alone, once with the entire family. Inga came too, with their brother and both parents. They slept in the small rooms of the brick house, ate soup in the garden, laughed over language gaps, and charmed Kacper’s parents with their warmth and earthiness.

When Jurek married Aneta, Helga was there — not just as a guest, but as kin. She even wrote about the wedding in a travel magazine in Iceland, describing a Polish village celebration with curiosity and affection.

Much later — nearly thirty years on — Helga told Kacper that the house where he had once stayed, nestled in the folds of Neskaupstaður, had burnt to the ground. Nothing was saved.

He sat with the news for a long time.

But even then, he knew: the house may have vanished, but the home remained. It lived in the memories, in the songs they sang, in the wool jumper folded at the back of his wardrobe, still faintly smelling of snow…'

📷 Link to pictures from that memorable trip to Iceland.

🇨🇦 Canada — The Other Side of Memory

Across the Atlantic, Kacper touches a landscape shaped by the footsteps of those who came before — his mother, his aunt, cousins who crossed oceans in search of something firmer than fate. Canada is familiar and foreign, comforting and strange.

In Montréal and Ottawa, he walks the streets they once walked. There are shared meals and polite conversations, embraces that attempt to stretch across years of distance and difference. The warmth is real, and yet something flickers just out of reach — a sense that what binds them is thinner than time.

He listens, watches, absorbs. And quietly, he understands: this place, though once imagined as his own, was never quite his. It is a mirror reflecting both inheritance and divergence. Gratitude and longing. The unclaimed corners of belonging.

📌 '…Soon he was on a plane, crossing the Atlantic. Watching the ocean dissolve into a continent shaped like a promise. The cabin lights dimmed. He couldn’t sleep. He pressed his forehead to the window and thought of Montreal, where his mother had once wept in silence after a long day’s work beside Basia, the deaf Jewish woman she cared for with such tenderness. He thought of the letters from Basia’s family, offering her a new life, a fresh beginning. And of her quiet decision to return home instead. A brave no — spoken with love. He thought of the family who chose exile and the parents who chose to return.

The lights came on. Trays rattled. The plane descended through a bank of cloud, and a city appeared — bridges over the St Lawrence, English and French signs vying for space, rows of homes with iron staircases, the kind of winter-grey he knew by heart, even if it was spring.

A new continent.
A new road.
A new way to understand the old story.

And he stepped into it — backpack tight on his shoulders, notebook in his pocket — ready to ride it from the east to the Pacific and back again, ready to listen, ready to map the distances inside himself.

He arrived in Canada in the late spring of 1996, stepping off the plane into the soft air of Montréal, his eyes adjusting to a new light, a new continent. After years of imagining, wondering, piecing together scraps of stories, he was finally here — in the country that had shaped his mother’s sacrifice and his family’s imagination.

He stayed first with Auntie Maria — or Aunt Marysia, as she now called herself. Not an aunt by blood, but a cousin of Grandma Lidia, his father’s mother. She had come from Harklowa, a small village in the foothills of the Tatra Mountains, and like so many others displaced by war and betrayal, she had boarded a ship westward, carrying only a suitcase and impossible dreams.

Her early years in Canada had been hellish. She worked menial jobs, spoke broken English, rented rooms with strangers. She went without heating. Without enough food. Without her children, who were left in Poland until she could earn enough to bring them over. She never complained — but the silence of her struggle was seared into the way she moved through the world.

By the time Kacper met her, she had transformed.

Auntie Marysia was striking, unforgettable. She was a large woman — easily 130 or 140 kilos — but carried herself with the defiant glamour of a starlet past her prime but never out of the spotlight. Her dresses were always elegant, and often startlingly short, revealing heavy legs clad in shimmering tights. She loved bold necklines, exposing the top of her chest like a stage curtain drawn just enough to tease.

And then there was the jewellery:
Necklaces upon necklaces, layers of gold chains, rings on every finger, sometimes two per hand, hooped earrings that brushed her powdered jawline. Her wrists jingled with bracelets as she walked. Kacper once joked that she could probably survive a power outage just by standing in a dark room.

Her makeup was a ritual.
Red lips, sharply drawn eyebrows, cheeks blushed into permanent delight. Her hair — always styled — bouffant, pinned, lacquered into submission. She had her own aura of perfume and powder, something halfway between a ballroom and a memory.

There was a story behind each item she wore, and even more behind those she didn’t speak of. She had married four or five times, always to Polish or Ukrainian men. “And they all died on me,” she’d say with a sly wink. “I don’t know why the police never investigated. But I make a nice widow.” Then she’d toss her head back and laugh — rich, rolling, self-aware.

But beneath the glitter was grit.

Kacper knew that all this splendour was not about vanity — it was about victory. She had made it. She had brought her children across oceans. She had helped his mother find her footing, find work, and bring dignity back to their house in Biegonice. She had paid her dues — and now she would shine.

Her apartment was spotless. Impossibly so. The carpet looked combed. The porcelain figurines stood in perfect ranks on velvet runners. Even the light switches seemed polished.

Maria was not just a character — she was a force of nature, equal parts defiance and affection. And Kacper loved her for all of it…'

📷 Link to pictures from Canada.

🇩🇰 Back in Denmark — Between Departure and Becoming

Denmark steadies him once more, but the rhythm has shifted. The final months at the school are filled with a quiet urgency. There are still books to read, classes to attend, walks through the woods and around the lake — but always with a feeling of something approaching.

Kacper spends hours studying Portuguese, letting the sounds of a new continent settle on his tongue. He learns the names of Angolan towns, traces their histories, listens to stories that hint at both promise and pain. With Daniel, Tomasz and Jannik — his future teammates — he imagines the road ahead. They speak about teaching, about war and peace, about what it means to truly serve.

At the same time, there are the goodbyes that aren’t quite goodbyes — dinners that last longer, laughter that carries a little more weight, friendships held with the kind of care that only comes when parting is near. He watches the seasons shift. The rooms grow quieter. The school, once a whirlwind of discovery, becomes a place of anchoring.

These are the days of preparation — not just for a departure, but for an immersion into a world unlike any he’s known. And though the air is calm, something stirs underneath: readiness, tinged with awe.

📷 Link to pictures from the time at the college in Denmark.

This chapter was a joy to complete — not because every memory it holds was easy or bright, but because it brought with it a sense of clarity and grounding. It felt honest, spacious, and necessary.

Now, it’s time to begin a new stretch of the journey — writing about Angola, and about setting foot in that vast, aching, astonishing continent for the first time. A place where red earth meets resilience, and where everything — absolutely everything — begins to shift.

I’ll keep you updated as the memories unfold.

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✍️ Why I Am Writing Memoir of a Wandering Spirit

Some stories don’t announce themselves. They settle quietly in the body — not forgotten, just waiting.
Memoir of a Wandering Spirit is one such story. A narrative shaped not by tidy chronology, but by memory — restless, longing, and full of the traces left by people, places, and moments that refused to fade.

This is my story — as I remember it, and as I have come to interpret it. It’s written in the third person, because at some point in the telling, I became Kacper — a version of myself through whom the journey flows more freely. Some details may be blurred or refracted by time. But the essence is true. The emotions are true. The events, while sometimes softened or rearranged, are rooted in lived experience.

The book is not a collection of facts. It’s a map made of textures: the softness of a hospital blanket, the grit of stale bread on a border train, the weight of silence after an unanswered letter, the squeak of school shoes on cold corridors. I write from photographs, from journals, from physical memory — and from that place where truth sometimes distorts itself to let something deeper rise.

To protect privacy and honour intimacy, I have changed the names of many people along the way. If you find a shadow of yourself here, please know it is written with care, gratitude, and respect.

The memoir traces a journey that begins in a small Polish village and winds through hospitals and classrooms, refugee camps, war zones, and wide, uncertain skies. It is the story of a child who was told to lie still — and didn’t. And of a man who kept returning to the places where pain met purpose, and sorrow met grace.

Below, you’ll find a summary of the first ten chapters. I’ll begin updating this space more regularly as the writing unfolds — with reflections, photographs, extracts, and fragments that didn’t make it into the manuscript, but still insist on being remembered.

🧭 Chapter Summaries (1–10)

Chapter 1: The Road to Zakopane

Kacper is born in Biegonice, near Nowy Sącz. His early life is filled with family warmth, but also illness — first mysterious, then increasingly serious. Weekly trips to Kraków’s Prokocim hospital become routine, where plaster casts are applied to his legs. The car rides, pain, and comfort of the radio etch themselves into his childhood. Eventually, he’s sent to Konstancin near Warsaw, where doctors reveal the severity of his spinal condition. There, he feels deeply alone and witnesses both the unfamiliar (like meeting a Black child for the first time) and the terrifying. Zakopane is the final referral — a clinic with a reputation for miracles. Martial Law is declared. Hope and fear walk hand in hand.

Photos:
Click here for pictures related to this chapter: Early childhood.

Chapter 2: The Operation

The surgery arrives with little warning. Kacper is wheeled in, scared but ready. The operation is long and risky. He wakes to a new body and a country under Martial Law. What follows is pain, infection, disorientation — and recovery. An ambulance ride turns dramatic when soldiers try to stop them. Kacper has to learn how to sit, breathe, and walk again. But he is growing taller, breathing deeper. He watches the snow fall from the hospital window, senses something unfolding far beyond him. The child is changing, and so is Poland.

Chapter 3: The Return

Kacper returns home to Nowy Sącz — healed, but changed. He must now learn how to live outside the hospital. School feels foreign. Friends are unsure how to treat him. His older brother, Jurek, becomes his protector and translator of the world. Family stories take centre stage — his father’s post-war struggles, his mother’s fierce resilience, the myths of Biegonice. A plastic body cast is replaced by a cautious freedom. Kacper learns English, excels in geography, and discovers a passion for the wider world. He dreams of London. Of somewhere else. Of more.

Chapter 4: The Years of Becoming

Secondary school brings both fear and surprise. Kacper is accepted by classmates and protected by his teachers. He excels academically, especially in languages. He joins a local language centre, where volunteers from abroad broaden his horizons. Through letters exchanged with Seraphina, a penfriend from the Seychelles, he explores love, loss, and identity. Family trips, student exchanges, the shock of a classmate’s suicide — all shape his sense of self. His mother briefly moves to Canada to work, bringing back not just money but dignity. These years are slow but powerful. Kacper begins to believe he might belong — somewhere.


Chapter 5: The Dream That Almost Was

Kacper finishes school and begins working at PolTransCom as a translator. It’s an unglamorous but practical start — he earns a salary, translates tedious documents, and navigates the daily routines of office life with an oddball cast of characters. The work is tolerable, but his heart is elsewhere.

A short trip to Germany offers a taste of something freer. Later, he travels to London with dreams stitched inside his coat lining. There, he attends a trade event where he glimpses Princess Diana — a surreal moment that starkly contrasts with his own financial uncertainty and the grimy hostel beds he sleeps in.

He is accepted to the University of York, but funding proves elusive. A British contact, John Brown, had promised financial help, only to vanish. With no money and time running out, he returns to Poland briefly, devastated but still unwilling to let go.

London becomes a place of despair. Back in the UK on borrowed time, Kacper is forced to live rough — at one point sleeping under a staircase at Earl’s Court. His student visa application fails, and he falls through every bureaucratic crack. Still, he teaches private lessons, saves pennies, and refuses to give up. Just as all hope fades, friends offer a mattress and emotional shelter. That kindness — offered in a small flat — is enough. It saves him. He decides to move forward. The dream almost dies. But doesn’t.

Photos:
Picture from Germany, while working for PolTransCom.
Glimpses of living in London, when things were really difficult.


Chapter 6: Kraków, and the Suit That Didn’t Fit

To stay afloat while waiting for something better, Kacper enrols in university in Kraków, choosing diplomacy and international relations — a field that sounds respectable but feels hollow. He arrives wearing a second-hand suit that doesn’t fit, both physically and metaphorically. That image lingers as the central metaphor for this chapter.

Kraków itself is romantic and moody, but he feels lost within it. The classes are formal, dry, and disconnected from the real world. He teaches English privately to survive, floating through a life that feels borrowed. There are occasional sparks of joy — walks through the Old Town, a well-timed joke from a student — but mostly, he is biding time.

He remains haunted by his time in London: the generosity of his hosts, the failures of institutions, the harshness of rejection. These unspoken struggles press against the walls of Kraków’s classrooms. Ultimately, he realises that Kraków was never meant to hold him. It’s a place of waiting, not of becoming. So, again, he prepares to move on.

Photos:
A trip to Venice with Mum and Kacper's 'adopted sister'.

Chapter 7: Where the Windmill Turns

Kacper joins DNS, a radical international school in Denmark. He meets a cast of unforgettable classmates — Agnieszka, Mikkel, Eli, Kurt — and a whole world of shared values and noisy debates. They grow vegetables, clean toilets, study global issues, and prepare for long trips to India and Africa. He finds purpose, love, and challenge in equal measure. The school breaks him open and puts him back together. It’s the first place that feels like chosen family.

Photos:
Saving up period while studying.

Chapter 8: Through the Heart of India

India is overwhelming. Kacper volunteers at Mitraniketan, a Gandhian rural centre in Kerala, and is struck by poverty, resilience, kindness, and contradictions. He travels by train, learns about caste, drinks coconut water, and listens to village children’s dreams. It’s not paradise — it’s difficult and dazzling, all at once. Other DNS students appear along the way. Together, they share meals and stories. India marks him forever — not for what it is, but for what it awakens.

Photos:
The trip around India, Pakistan, Iran and Turkey.

Chapter 9: Borders and Hostages

Kacper and Silja begin the overland return journey through Pakistan. Outside Lahore, something goes wrong — they are drugged, perhaps kidnapped. The episode is foggy, frightening. Rescued by Catholic monks and reconnected with their group, they carry new fear. The journey through Pakistan continues with emotional caution. The Wagah border crossing into India is deeply symbolic — flags, spectacle, and fragility. They move westward through cities and deserts. Something has shifted. Nothing feels guaranteed anymore.

Photos:
The trip around India, Pakistan and Turkey.

Chapter 10: Through the Silk and the Stone

The route back to Europe leads through Iran and Turkey. Kacper observes veiled women, snow-dusted mountains, and market chaos. He feels the weight of history in each ruin, each checkpoint. They cross into Istanbul — the symbolic bridge to Europe. There, they part ways. Kacper boards a regular bus back to Kraków. No flags, no cameras, no ceremony. Just a return. But he is no longer the boy who left. The story is still unfolding.

Photos:
The trip around India, Pakistan and Turkey.

🔜 What Comes Next

And there is still much more to come.

As the chapters move into adulthood, the accounts will deepen — not only because the events are more recent, but because they involve choices made with full awareness. These next parts will draw heavily from my work as a humanitarian — a path that has shaped the very architecture of my being. You will find stories from the field, from remote villages to vast cities; from makeshift shelters to negotiation tables; from lonely hotel rooms to war zones that changed everything.

But it is not just about work. These chapters will also explore the ties that bind — love, friendship, family, grief. There will be moments of quiet happiness, and others of pain or tragedy. Some stories may be difficult to read, and a few perhaps uncomfortable or controversial. I won’t shy away from them. They’re part of the truth I carry.

Importantly, while I do reflect on the world — on justice, power, inequality, and belonging — I do so from my own narrow window. These are my thoughts, shaped by the experiences I’ve had. I do not pretend they are universally correct. I am not trying to convince anyone. I’m simply offering a view — personal, imperfect, and entirely my own. Some will disagree. Some may turn away. But for those who stay, I hope something resonates.

This page will also become a space for small things that matter:
✍️ stories that didn’t make it into the chapters,
📚 glimpses into the writing process and its technical chaos,
🎒 anegdotes from behind the scenes,
📷 and photos that breathe life into forgotten corners.

Thank you for walking alongside me on this journey.
There’s still a long way to go — and I look forward to sharing it with you.

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